God isn't gonna show up here on OTz and help me prove His existance to you or anybody else, I'm sure you can at least agree with me on that point....I have no other proof, other than my own existance. I won't sit here an go into the details of my life, but I will tell you that I'm not an airhead and I'm not a crazy fool............wouldn't I have to be to come in here and put your opinion of me on the line just to say that I believe in something that I don't have some pretty hard, albeit, scary at times evidence of? I can even understand your inability to believe...because unless you've actually let yourself trust in Him, whether it be out of faith or desperation, it just isn't easy....it's soooo far from easy.