I don't honestly know why God chooses to hide Himself. People argue all the time that it has to do with free will, and I can understand that, to an extent. I mean, on the one hand God is an...entity I guess, who wants His people to come to Him based on faith. On the other hand, theists argue that God is a fully just and good being, and if that's the case, then one would assume that He would want to do anything in His power (i.e.: anything.) to bring everyone to His...word I guess.
I have incredibly conflicting feelings on the being of God. I believe that there is some higher power, I've seen the miracles that can be done, but I have an impossible time believing that God is as most theists believe He is. I want to believe. I really do. I go to church every week, looking for some sort of answer. And I know I'm never going to find it. Real life experience has shown me that there *is* something out there. I just can't determine what, exactly, that something is. It's hard to listen to closed-minded theists who talk about the "stupidity" of believing in evolution. I can believe in creation *and* evolution, and I do. And I don't think *MY* God would punish me for having an open mind, as these people would have me believe.