hmmm

[BreakfastSurreal]

so i might be leaving my fiance. I'm not sure. I have to figure out how I can keep my life straight and not live here. All my friends and family live an hour away..and thats a hell of a commute to school/work...I don't know if i could do it and even make enough money to pay for my gas every week. I refuse to quit school. Yeah something REALLY bad just happened this morning...behavior that I will not EVER tolerate. If this isn't permanent then I will just leave for a little while to let him get his head straight and to show him taht that is totally unacceptable. Today is going to be really hard...I need to make a lot of important decisions involving several people's money...(a LOT of money). I don't know if getting money back for the wedding is an option, or if I should even think about cancelling it now while I might be thinking irrationally due to what happened. I am just clueless..I dunno what I need to do.

 

[TheOriginalJames]

good luck in whatever you decide. If you need to talk give me a call. Even though I'm not much help with relationship crap.

 

[BreakfastSurreal]

thanks james. I think i might go buy a bottle of rum or something.

 

[Maulds]

What is it with relationships going to shit here this week? Don't drink your problems away, call James.

 

[Bagel]

yeah i seriously suggest talking to someone about helpya sort out your head

 

[Darkstar]

Clare you can call me too if you need to, as a woman going through the same relationship BS. Im here for you if you need me.

And calling someone...anyone rather, beats the hell out of hitting the bottle.

 

[Maulds]

And calling someone...anyone rather, beats the hell out of hitting the bottle.

Hey we agreed

 

[Darkstar]

Yes you did...rep for the good advice

 

[Mrs Behavin]

I am so sorry to hear that I hope yall can work thru things. What is up with men and relationships lately?

 

[TheOriginalJames]

Yes you did...rep for the good advice

Does this include moi?

 

[Darkstar]

I've repped you today....or it would <3

 

[BreakfastSurreal]

thanks guys I really appreciate your love and support. It is really hard to talk about matt to someone who doesn't actually KNOW matt...because...well he is just weird. I dunno. I talked to my friend Jay and our roommate billy about it, they were here when everything happened.. I finally called matt and asked him about it and he tells me he is just stressed about our finances, which is why he got set off so quickly. But I dunno...I just DONT KNOW what to do. My mind says I should leave, but my heart tells me to stay and that I am overreacting.

 

[Kat]

Im sorry to hear things arent going so good clare...id say give it a bit to clear your head before making any decisions...and as for guys lately...I think its just be an asshole season for some of the ones in relationships *hugs

 

[Darkstar]

Good lord dont I know it. I think I need to hit up Silent for some of her world famous advice.

 

[Kat]

haha i did that last night crys....yet one more reson why I love silent

 

[BreakfastSurreal]

ugh ok i just talked to him...he apologized and he says that i came at him and hit him first...which i honestly do not remember whatsoever. But then again I don't remember anything really. My mind is cloudy. Jay and Billy said they didn't really SEE anything now. I don't remember waht happened, I was seeing red. I do remember what he did to me though. Ugh I don't even know. He says he was just pissed about our financial situation right now...and that that is stressing him out.

 

[OUZBnd]

Good luck working this out. I don't know what happened so I can't say you are over reacting or not. But give it a couple days and think it through and see how you feel. But remember, it's not worth it or fair to either of you if you stay with him just because of convenience. I hope you get things figured out. I can't imagine what it would be like to have to cancel a wedding. But you've got to do what is best in the long run.

 

[Peter Parka]

Well personally I believe it's wrong to hit women, period! Sorry to hear about it. Good luck with whatever you decide to do.

 

[Apriluvsyoo21]

It is wrong to hit women but that doesn't mean things don't get heated sometimes. But abuse begins with a pattern, and you have to really look at your situation and ask yourself if this is a pattern. I actually know both Clare and Mat and I just think you need to ask yourself if you fear this becoming or if it is a normal thing. If your heart is telling you to stay and you really were seeing red than that's probably just what it is.

 

[BreakfastSurreal]

I'm conflicted. I guess actually I can't really differentiate between my heart and my mind. One of them is telling me stay and the other is telling me go. I just can't tell which one is which, or which one is right.