Re: zirconaz talks to herself
"Every woman was once a little girl. And every little girl holds in her heart her most precious dreams. She longs to be swept up into a romance, to play an irreplaceable role in a great adventure, to be the beauty of the story. Those desires are for more than childs play. They are the secret to the feminine heart. And yet, how many women do you know who ever find that life? As the years pass by, the heart of a woman gets pushed aside, wounded, buried. She finds no romance except in novels, no adventure except on television, and she doubts very much that she will ever be the beauty in any tale. Most women think they have to settle for a life of efficency and duty, chores and errands, striving to be the women they "ought" to be, but often feeling they have failed. But her heart is still there. Sometimes when she watches a movie, sometimes in the wee hours of the night, her heart begins to speak again. A thirst rises, acking to find the life she was meant to live, the life she dreamed of as a little girl. To stop feeling like she just dosen't measure up, results in shame, the universal companion of women. It haunts her, nipping at her heels, feeding on her deepest fear that we will end up abandoned and alone"
-- JOHN ELDREDGE