Bumming out...2010 was a tough year...Lost a dear friend in August and I can't shake it.
I'm sitting here thinking I really have needed antidepressent medication since August....and that I should get an emergency appt. to start the stuff because my son told me yesterday that I have a DIFFERENT LOOK in my eyes...that I do not look like myself....I do not FEEL like myself either and nighttime is worse for some reason.
I don't drink and I don't do drugs...so I can't dismiss all these feelings...not to mention that both my kids have been in serious trouble since August....trouble with family members as well...and my 18 year old dog is ready to be put to sleep, but I don't have the HEART or the 200 dollars to do it. SO to sum it up....I'm sitting in my own shit and I can't get out of it....I will just keep TRYING.....