So... over the last week, I pretty much came to the conclusion that I'm going to move away from here. I was around a lot of people while I was out for my friend's wedding that were trying to convince me to move to North Carolina (where they all live, the wedding was in South Carolina)... some of them were people I knew from out here that have moved there, others were people that I just met while I was there. I don't remember the last time I was around so many genuinely nice people that were willing to offer their help to me to find work or help me move out there in some way... people that I just met.
All of that, along with a lot of thinking and reflection on my part during the week and on my trip back yesterday made me realize that I think this is the direction that I need to start going... moving myself away from my family (and my son unfortunately) and all the way across the country to try and make a new start in North Carolina. Right now my plan is to get all of my stuff out here in order. I'm going to be calling the city to get a dumpster delivered to my house, and I'm going to be working on getting rid of probably about 75-80% of what I own... I have way too much junk as it is, and I need to get rid of a lot anyway. I'm going to be giving notice with my property management company, and be out of my house by the end of June, and then I'll have to move back in with my parents for the time being. Then I'm pretty much going to have to save up as much money as I can every month, and I hope I might be able to be in a financial position to move by September or October. It just dawned on me earlier though that I don't know what I'm going to do for now... since I don't want to start actively looking for work out there until I have money saved, but at the same time... I really need a job.
I guess I'm just going to have to take things as they come and try to make the right decisions as they come along.
Obviously, moving away from my son isn't ideal... but at the same time I also knew that I was going to have to within the next few years anyway because of my allergies. Plus, with the advent of technologies like Skype, I can still do my best to keep in contact with him... it just sucks that I won't really be able to be with him every week in person. But at the same time, I'm doing him absolutely no good being out here without a job... yes, I get to see him, but I can't provide for him, and with the job market the way that it is right now; God only knows how long it's going to be until I can actually find a job, if I can find one for that matter.
Now I have to talk to my ex about all of this and start trying to figure out what a modified custody arrangement would look like. I'd obviously like to be able to have him for time when he's not in school, and then come back out here when I'm able to. This would probably be a dream come true for her anyway, since she's been wanting to get rid of me for a long time now... hell, before I went out she actually told me that she wanted me to meet a girl out there and then I could move out there and be like my other two friends that met girls out there and moved. Haha, she's probably going to think that I did actually. :24:
All of that, along with a lot of thinking and reflection on my part during the week and on my trip back yesterday made me realize that I think this is the direction that I need to start going... moving myself away from my family (and my son unfortunately) and all the way across the country to try and make a new start in North Carolina. Right now my plan is to get all of my stuff out here in order. I'm going to be calling the city to get a dumpster delivered to my house, and I'm going to be working on getting rid of probably about 75-80% of what I own... I have way too much junk as it is, and I need to get rid of a lot anyway. I'm going to be giving notice with my property management company, and be out of my house by the end of June, and then I'll have to move back in with my parents for the time being. Then I'm pretty much going to have to save up as much money as I can every month, and I hope I might be able to be in a financial position to move by September or October. It just dawned on me earlier though that I don't know what I'm going to do for now... since I don't want to start actively looking for work out there until I have money saved, but at the same time... I really need a job.
I guess I'm just going to have to take things as they come and try to make the right decisions as they come along.
Obviously, moving away from my son isn't ideal... but at the same time I also knew that I was going to have to within the next few years anyway because of my allergies. Plus, with the advent of technologies like Skype, I can still do my best to keep in contact with him... it just sucks that I won't really be able to be with him every week in person. But at the same time, I'm doing him absolutely no good being out here without a job... yes, I get to see him, but I can't provide for him, and with the job market the way that it is right now; God only knows how long it's going to be until I can actually find a job, if I can find one for that matter.
Now I have to talk to my ex about all of this and start trying to figure out what a modified custody arrangement would look like. I'd obviously like to be able to have him for time when he's not in school, and then come back out here when I'm able to. This would probably be a dream come true for her anyway, since she's been wanting to get rid of me for a long time now... hell, before I went out she actually told me that she wanted me to meet a girl out there and then I could move out there and be like my other two friends that met girls out there and moved. Haha, she's probably going to think that I did actually. :24:
