It looks good. It was nice reading and getting to know you better.
I know this may not help you at the moment, but later on, mark my words - you will come out of all you are going through stronger, knowing yourself better, eyes wide open, knowing what you want out of a relationship, and out of life and all that. Loss, as painful as it is, really stretches a person. They grow or they break. You are not going to break. You are the type that grows. Yes, definitely the type that grows. Hang in there.