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[Veronica]

OMG, So many of my friends are losing weight and I am STUCK where Im at due to my health problems. I feel so fat and unattractive its unreal. I keep gaining weight and Im not doing anything bad. Doc is testing me for some hormone problems. My thyroid is enlarged right now, so they are gonne have to up my meds.. and with my heart meds, nothing helps me losing weight.. I seriously HATE myself right now. I dont even like to get naked in front of zk now. I see how far Jersey has come and it makes me feel even worse! I am sooo happy for her, but I get mad at my self for letting me slip.

 

[Dana]

V you're gorgeous. Stop it!

 

[Veronica]

no im not.. I am 2 sizes bigger than I was a year ago .. Ive worked out.. I trained at the gym.. everything I did, I still gained more weight. There is no reason for this crap. I dont drink soda.. I do drink sweet tea, but I have been drinking more water.. and Still NOTHING. I dont understand. I feel horrible.. I dont want zk to think I am discusting.

 

[Dana]

I dont understand. I feel horrible.. I dont want zk to think I am discusting.

that's ridiculous....

 

[Alien Allen]

It probably has to do with the meds and your thyroid

I would talk to the dr about it if this concerns you that much.

We are always harder on ourselves than others are on us.

Trust me you still are hot.

 

[Thornless]

You're beautiful Veronica!

If it'll make you feel better, I'll post a body shot of my stretched, loose skin of my abdomen.

 

[AUDRAA]

Im with you V I really have to get my shit together soon! As for Jersey I showed the hubby a pic of her yesterday and he was like WOW she looks good!

 

[Veronica]

She does look amazing! and SOOO do you audra! I just checked out ur pic and your looking amazing as well!!

The doc is working on my blood work now. I should find out the results on monday or tuesday. I am hoping they have some answers for me. I started running the other day...so I am gonna keep that up. I just gotta keep busy and hope that it falls off.. Thing is, Ive been so stressed that I havent had time for even myself. Zk says he loves me regardless of my size, but I dont love myself and that is a big problem.

 

[AUDRAA]

Im sure he does and girl youre beautiful too you just cant see yourself like the rest of us do right now.

 

[RedRyder]

We are our worst critics, V. Stop hearing only what you are saying and listen to others. You're beautiful period.

Eventually the doctor's will figure it out and things will start to fall into place.

 

[Veronica]

i know we are our worse critics, but still..

 

[satinbutterfly]

You're beautiful V.

But, as I know, anyone can tell you that, but you need to know it for yourself.

*hugs*

 

[Sneakiecat]

Doc is testing me for some hormone problems. My thyroid is enlarged right now, so they are gonne have to up my meds..

This could be the problem. Don't stress until you get the blood work back and you know what's going on.

 

[Veronica]

i knew you would know about the thyroid. and I believe yours is reversed to mine.. You had it to where your metabolism was fast right? mine is like nonexistent.

 

[Sneakiecat]

Actually, it was functioning fine, just enlarged and had nodules. Now that it's removed, I technically have hypothyroidism but mine's well controlled at the moment.

 

[Peter Parka]

My missus has thyroid problems too which coupled with her not being able to exercise, due to her ME, means she cant lose weight.

 

[Veronica]

Actually, it was functioning fine, just enlarged and had nodules. Now that it's removed, I technically have hypothyroidism but mine's well controlled at the moment.

So how do you take your meds?? Im just wondering cuz i heard if you dont take it a certain way than it wont work.

And since mine is enlarged, does that always mean they have to remove it? Is it better to be removed than to keep if your having problems with it?

 

[Leananshee]

You, V, are hot. Yes, I know you don't feel that way, but you have more than enough people saying you are, who aren't just saying it either. Just to give it some perspective, about 12 years ago the meds I got put on made me go from 145 pounds soaking wet to 225+ in about 3 months time. Despite having worked physically strenuous jobs I have never dropped back below 200 and still have a spare tire. Yep, I can lift one end of a car and I still have a pudge.

If it turns out you do have thyroid problems and they can regulate it, you should be fine. And don't trust weight charts put out in the US, European ones are far more realistic. Stay away from stuff like NutraSweet, it's poison and makes you crave carbs. And for God's sake don't blow your heart up, follow your doc's advice.

tim :eek

 

[Veronica]

My missus has thyroid problems too which coupled with her not being able to exercise, due to her ME, means she cant lose weight.

see, I exercise and still gain.. i havent exercised in a few months since my hearts been having trouble, but I started back last week.

 

[NuckingFuts]

Shit Veronica I should send you a pic of me without a shirt on!:eek That would definatley me your self esteem rise. It would have you thinking, hell I dont have it as bad as that guy at least!