I wish

[Goat Whisperer]

Yesterday I overheard a conversation between my mom and my brother... they were making fun of me. My life, my passions, my everything. I can't even put into words how much it hurt to hear the things they were saying... and now it just feels like I am some sort of big joke to everyone in my family; and I always have been. I just feel so betrayed, and by the people that are supposed to love me the most, the people I am supposed to be able to trust with my life. I have always been the one my brothers and sisters left out and made fun of, but now... I've just never felt more alone or hated. So I wrote this.

Through all of these years I have liked to pretend
That my family is more then family, they're a friend
That jokes, made at my expense, were for laughing
That it was okay, even though it would sting

But deep down I knew how much it really hurt
Deep down I started feeling lower then dirt
It used to feel like I was blessed from above
Now I don't feel like I have ever felt their love

I don't remember a single pat on the back
Or even I time when I haven't felt under attack
I've never been good enough; like I was cursed
And when I have been bad; I've been the worst

Why did my sister lie for my brother, and not for me?
Why didn't they take me that one time to go ski?
I have always felt left out, like no one wants me around
But they never gave me a chance I have found

From the day I was born I haven't been in this family
No matter how much I wished I was, no matter how badly
I've felt left out every play date, birthday, and christmas party
Will they ever see just how much they have hurt me?

I wish I could stay up all night and giggle with my sister
I wish my brother would invite me to play twister
I wish they would tell me I could do what I put my mind to
I wish they would mean it when they say I love you

 

[Ryder]

Your mother is probably not a bad person. I don't know why she did what she did but look at all the things you've done, you deserve a fucking medal. If it was me first I'd ask why the fuck they were laughing at something I devoted my life too. You should think back to all you've done and really not give a shit. Though you should ask why the hell they were laughing.

 

[edgray]

Yesterday I overheard a conversation between my mom and my brother... they were making fun of me. My life, my passions, my everything. I can't even put into words how much it hurt to hear the things they were saying... and now it just feels like I am some sort of big joke to everyone in my family; and I always have been. I just feel so betrayed, and by the people that are supposed to love me the most, the people I am supposed to be able to trust with my life. I have always been the one my brothers and sisters left out and made fun of, but now... I've just never felt more alone or hated. So I wrote this.

a sad poem, well written. I've always been the joke of my family, for my out-there beliefs and stuff myself so I can sympathise. Fuck 'em, I say. I earn more than all of them now, have a far better life, live in a much nicer place and have far more control over my lives than them... you won't be able to change the way your family feels about you, but you can certainly do everything you can to show them how great a person you are.

 

[Guyzerr]

GW if I were you I would leave the poem on the table or better yet the kitchen counter. Don't say a word about it until your mom approaches you. That will be the time to tell her you are fully aware of being the blunt end of your families jokes. Trust me when I tell you her attitude will change after she reads it.