Freakin whatever man

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Shit sucks for me. I'm so frustrated with how things are going. Its really not that bad I guess. Maybe I'm over reacting. Who knows. Its gotten to where I don't want to stop working. I just want to keep going. I have 4 days off this week for Thanksgiving and I don't want to do it. Its actually pissing me off that I can't work. I think about going back to work after I get off. I'll go home for a few minutes and I just want to go back. The only thing I can figure is that I am using work as a reason to get away. But its rather stressful so its not the best getaway. I mean all in all shit could be much worse. But could deffinately be much much better.

I would love to just curl up in a ball and forget about everything or just run away. Pack all my shit and be out like a fat kid playin dodge ball. That shit wouldn't do any good though and I know it. I don't know what I want to do anymore. I'm not sure of what I want. Its just ass. Anyone get this way? Is it just me? I'm seriously about to just throw my hands up to everything and just say fuck it all.
 
Of course man and anyone who tells you differently is a f----- liar. It sucks to go thru though so I hope things get better for you soon man.
 
There have been several times that I want to throw my hands up and say fuck it all I don't care. But, at the same time... the grass is always going to look greener on the other side of the fence. Whether it is or not is not a chance I want to take on finding out.

If work is your way of getting away from home stress, then more power to you man. I don't find anything wrong with that, even though I'm the exact opposite.
 
I don't know your situation but feel bad for the feelings of 'giving up' you are experiencing right now. Please know that whatever you are going through is 'temporary' even though it may not feel like it at the time. Persevere.
 
So much is goin through my head I don't know where to begin to explain. I'm not giving up on life. Just giving up on me I guess. Last night I was told I act like I'm 80. Because I go to bed early and all I want to do is work. I go to bed early because I get up at 5am everyday to work and I get home around 5 to 6pm. So hell yeah I'm tired and I want to sleep. God I can't even get out how I'm feeling. I try to do right by everyone. Why can't these people do right by me?
 
It's sad you are having a tough time of it too.

Hope that whatever it is (I am guessing wife or partner? That's not to say I expect you to give detail though if you are not ready), soon blows over and that it doesn't seem like forever during your Thanksgiving over there.

We don't have that here just Christmas and Easter.

Take care. :)
 
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