Depression

[DuhhhBlond]

Anyone else here suffer from or been diagnosed with it?

I have the "manic" variety, and am dealing with the low slump right now, which is much less fun than the high side.
I'm not supposed to drink, because that intensifies it, but sometimes it's a temporary relief.
I was also prescribed prozac for years, but weened my self off them a few months ago, due to increasingly lowsy insurance benefits.
My mood swings have ranged from bitterly sad to extremely irritable in the last week.
The events in my life lately don't seem to help, and half have been brought on by my "illness."
It's vicious circle.

Thanks for reading.
Just wanted to have a pity party.

 

[AUFred]

My daughter has been all over the map emotionally lately. The doctors have prescribed far too many drugs for her.
I wish you the best

 

[itsmeJonB]

I don't "suffer" from it.
I have not a diagnosed person.
But I recall a time where I was so depressed. Lower than low. Life felt like it had no purpose. I couldnt imagine living my life with that feeling because it really was painful

 

[DuhhhBlond]

thanks for the responses, fellas

while just showering
i vowed to myself
to pull out of it
by cracking on my to-do list
and getting outdoors more often

I think distraction in a positive way is the key...

also I vow to keep a huge smile (even if it is fake)
upon my face at work tonight
so my tips aren't affected

 

[Pabst]

major depressive disorder here.

i can be very low or so easily irritated that i have borderline violent explosive anger. at my high points i feel like i'm going to explode in a ball of energy.

 

[Dana]

never dealt with clinical depression.

 

[retro]

I was diagnosed with depression just about 7 years ago. I've had times where I thought I was doing good enough to go off of my meds, only to crash back down again a few months later. Lately I've been beginning to wonder if I don't actually suffer from some form of bi-polar, it certainly would explain a lot of my extreme swings at times. I've been on 5 different meds since I was originally diagnosed... Prozac, Cymbalta, either Effexor or Celexa, and Wellbutrin. Been on Wellbutrin for 5.5 years now, and it seems to do the best for me. I really need to go back in and see a doctor again, but that involves seeing a new doctor, because mine just moved out of town last month.

 

[anathelia]

I have manic depression and bipolar. I suffer from suicidal intent. I'm a lot more fucked up than I let on or people really understand. I hate stupid doctors and I am going to have to start trying to ween myself off my meds here because I'm running out. I'm really looking forward to it, since I was just a beaming ray of sunshine the last few times I've forgotten or opted not to take them for a few days.

 

[Pabst]

I've had times where I thought I was doing good enough to go off of my meds, only to crash back down again a few months later.

that's the biggest mistake people with depression do, they think once they're feeling better they can stop taking them and then the depression comes back. dont make that mistake again.

I have manic depression and bipolar. I suffer from suicidal intent. I'm a lot more fucked up than I let on or people really understand. I hate stupid doctors and I am going to have to start trying to ween myself off my meds here because I'm running out. I'm really looking forward to it, since I was just a beaming ray of sunshine the last few times I've forgotten or opted not to take them for a few days.

i have homicidal intent. it's horrible. especially when i have impulsivity. when your white hot angry and those thoughts pop in my head it takes everything not to kill someone sometimes. being impulsive sucks when you're surrounded by idiots who get off on being rude to everyone.

 

[hart]

i have homicidal intent. it's horrible. especially when i have impulsivity. when your white hot angry and those thoughts pop in my head it takes everything not to kill someone sometimes. being impulsive sucks when you're surrounded by idiots who get off on being rude to everyone.

Note to self, be very, very nice to Pabst :jk

I am manic-depressive myself, now called bipolarism, as was my mom, her dad, etc. As someone said I luv the highs, I've never felt that good, strong, on fire, etc., even taking drugs (I experimented in my misguided youth)

But the lows, blow.....

My hubby is too, but he doesn't take his meds, regularly and sometime I have to play cheerleader. That can get old, why are men so stubborn?

 

[Pabst]

Note to self, be very, very nice to Pabst :jk

I am manic-depressive myself, now called bipolarism, as was my mom, her dad, etc. As someone said I luv the highs, I've never felt that good, strong, on fire, etc., even taking drugs (I experimented in my misguided youth)

But the lows, blow.....

My hubby is too, but he doesn't take his meds, regularly and sometime I have to play cheerleader. That can get old, why are men so stubborn?

i have some theories about this

A) he's full of machismo and feels like taking the meds makes him less of a man as men are taught to never be emotional and that we can just shake it off and shit. utter nonsense.

B) he's in denial and thinks he just doesnt need them. which can be mixed with theory A sometimes.

C) he hasnt given them enough time to work and so he convinced himself they arent effective. and this happens a lot. for the meds to work you have to be on them for a good month or more to really see if they're helping or not. you cant take them for a few day and say they dont work.


BTW nobody has to walk on eggshells with me, just dont go out of your way to challenge me when i ask you to show a little respect to other people you're around. not everyone wants to hear your big ass mouth talking into a cell phone in a check out lane, not everyone wants to hear your music 4 blocks away. give respect, get respect. dont give respect and i'll probably plot your murder or how i would maim you in the parking lot. i get mad over respect issues because there is no justification to be that rude to people, EVER. so i get mad enough and figure since you feel you can act however you want to whoever you want, i'll do it too but i'm not gonna blast music, i'll just maim you enough to leave a scar or a limp that will never go away for the rest of your life to remind of you what can happen when they do it to the wrong person.

 

[Forgotten]

I suffer from severe depression and am currently taking medicine for it.

 

[satinbutterfly]

I suffer from severe depression and I am not currently taking medication for it.

 

[Alien Allen]

Hey Duh have you tried Celexa?

The generic of it is cheap. Less than $10 a month

Drinking is a depressant even if you don't believe it reacts that way with you. So you need to be on the drugs without the booze for a while and give it a chance. The depressant in the booze can offset the anti depressant

For those who are playing doctor themselves by going off or on the meds without consulting a doctor they are taking chances. You need to wean yourself off or you can crash.

For some if you do not do therapy while on the drugs you might be wasting your time.

 

[hart]

i'll do it too but i'm not gonna blast music, i'll just maim you enough to leave a scar or a limp that will never go away for the rest of your life to remind of you what can happen when they do it to the wrong person.

I have a confession to make Pabst....I do like loud music in my car. But I go very very fast on the highway so most don't keep up to hear the music long. I don't have the base up so loud it rocks the car, though.

Respecting others, yeah I do that. I know it sounds so childish, cliche' whatever you want to call it, but I basically believe the golden rule...Do onto others as you would have them do on to you. Can's see why that wouldn't work

 

[DuhhhBlond]

major depressive disorder here.

i can be very low or so easily irritated that i have borderline violent explosive anger. at my high points i feel like i'm going to explode in a ball of energy.

I see I'm in good company

 

[DuhhhBlond]

ahhh.. and more good company from the following posts

We should start a club!

on a side note: I fooled 'em all at work tonight
big smiles from Duhhh got big tips for Duhhh

 

[Alien Allen]

I been this way for 45 years

Took me this long to finally address it

Tis a long stuggle

 

[DuhhhBlond]

Hey Duh have you tried Celexa?

For some if you do not do therapy while on the drugs you might be wasting your time.

no, I haven't, will give it some thought

this is why therapy doesn't work for me:

the only therapist I ever trusted was the one I had as a teen, and she is long gone

other therapists I've had:

one turned it around and started confiding her crap to me, affairs, etc.

another male one asked me why didn't I just tell all my crap to my girlfriends

another one revealed to me she hadn't seen her own son since he was two (I lost respect)

and the last encouraged me to encourage my daughter to have an abortion (I lost respect there, too)

 

[Alien Allen]

no, I haven't, will give it some thought

this is why therapy doesn't work for me:

the only therapist I ever trusted was the one I had as a teen, and she is long gone

other therapists I've had:

one turned it around and started confiding her crap to me, affairs, etc.

another male one asked me why didn't I just tell all my crap to my girlfriends

another one revealed to me she hadn't seen her own son since he was two (I lost respect)

and the last encouraged me to encourage my daughter to have an abortion (I lost respect there, too)

get a referral to a good one. I went to a guy for a few times who was no good. All he did was listen and then came up with some anecdotal stories that I believe were bull shit.

The one I am seeing now is very good. She makes you think. Very direct yet compassionate. And very observant. makes a big difference