Ana's Place..

[anathelia]

you know.

I see lots of people make the your/you're mistake with regards to replacing the latter with the former. Rarely does it happen in reverse and when it does, it can be amusing.

"you're stupid dog bit me."

wait...are you accusing me of being a biting dog? Or telling me my dog bit you?

I still don't understand how it's possible to screw that up as an educated adult. But, I guess we can't all have a working grasp of the English language.

 

[HK]

I like the one going round at the moment, about grammar being the difference between knowing your shit and knowing you're shit

 

[anathelia]

I like the one going round at the moment, about grammar being the difference between knowing your shit and knowing you're shit

haha! I like that one, as well.

 

[anathelia]

You know...I am an incredibly nice person who tries their hardest not to engage in arguments with people. But sometimes it pisses me off a bit when someone gives me a bullshit attitude for no reason and really makes me want to confront them. >.<

My dad and his wife temporarily adopted my puppy for me while we finished out the lease on our apartment because we were having issues potty training her and they had a backyard for her to play in. Recently, she's started chewing on things, and they both work so they don't have the time to train her or whatever. That's fine. A little annoying because our lease is up in the end of May and they can't keep her until then, but that's fine. My dad's wife texts me starting out nicely enough about how they can't keep her or whatever. And for some reason in the middle of the conversation, she got totally bitchy with me. I said I'd take her back, and yet I get the "ok......." text like I didn't say something right? Does she want me to pay them money for the "damages" of the dog they OFFERED to take for me? The dog she was calling her own and saying she'd never give me back? She knows the financial issues my boyfriend and I have been having for the last few months. She knows we're trying to get our bills in order while they go out and spend ridiculous amounts of money for her on clothes and perfumes and whatnot. My dog is not the Hulk. She cannot ACTUALLY chew through a metal scooter.

So anyway, after she sends me that text, she posts on facebook about how she's "really not in the mood." So, just in case she's mad because I haven't yet in this conversation specifically thanked her for taking Sophie, I texted her back and told her that if it was okay I'd pick her up Thurs or Fri (my dad's days off from work) because I needed to get some of that chew repellent spray and some chew toys or whatever so I can train her. I then followed it up by thanking her for watching her for me all this time. And the response I got back is "K."

She's two months older than me, but I swear to God sometimes she acts like she's 12. If I did something to piss her off, she should tell me instead of posting about it on facebook and being passive aggressive with me in a conversation. I'm trying not to say anything because Lord knows I can't upset the delicate balance of my family by saying anything. But, I really want to be like "Sorry if I did something to piss you off? I'm not really sure what I did, but all of a sudden you got really annoyed with me and I'd like to know what it is that I did so I can fix it." but I know that she'll either ignore me or she'll flip and then she'll go back to my dad and it'll start this whole thing and frankly, I don't want it to be this way anymore.

UGH.

 

[retro]

I'm sorry. I really don't understand her sometimes... well, I don't understand her pretty much any of the time.

*hug*

 

[anathelia]

She told me it's just that she had a bad day and she wished Sophie was better because she's so great otherwise.

 

[Panacea]

I can't say much because I don't know your relationship with her but maybe she was just being a raving bitch that day and it wasn't necessarily your fault. Hopefully not at least.

 

[anathelia]

I can't say much because I don't know your relationship with her but maybe she was just being a raving bitch that day and it wasn't necessarily your fault. Hopefully not at least.

Well, that's what she told me. And due to the fact that I try and see the best in people, I am inclined to believe her. I know Mondays suck, I know it's not fun having to get up at the ass-crack of dawn in order to get ready for work. So I can understand that she was grouchy and whatnot. She just tends to have an attitude is all.

I like her as a friend. I am not her biggest fan as my father's wife.

 

[anathelia]

She also has a tendency to try and mother me. I already have a mom, who I mostly can't stand. I don't need someone who's 2 months older than me trying to mother me as well. lol

 

[Panacea]

Ya lol that's understandable!

 

[anathelia]

http://www.twloha.com/blog/weare-twloha

 

[anathelia]

Finally. Chocolate milkshake. I've only been craving one of these for the last like four days...haha. Damn pregnancy.


But, we get to find out if we're having a boy or girl (hopefully) next week! Then I can start calling baby by a name. lol

 

[Panacea]

Yayyy! To both the milkshake and the boy/girl thing

 

[HK]

Got any particular preference either way? On the baby I mean

 

[anathelia]

Well, I'm kinda hoping for a boy since we already have a girl. She's just turned 3 and she's already as sassy as a teenager, so I'm kinda ready to deal with a boy. But at the same time, I'm not...haha.

 

[anathelia]

I can't believe it's already been 4 years since my brother's overdose. And he registered for college this week.

Amazing what someone with a drive and motivation can do compared to where the doctors thought he would be.

 

[Abcinthia]

Finally. Chocolate milkshake. I've only been craving one of these for the last like four days...haha. Damn pregnancy.


But, we get to find out if we're having a boy or girl (hopefully) next week! Then I can start calling baby by a name. lol

Oh how exciting

 

[anathelia]

Oh how exciting

I'm hoping it will help. I'm having a huge mental block and can't get really excited about this for some reason. I'm hoping being able to call them by name will help. Maybe then my daughter will finally stop asking me if my tummy isn't feeling very good every day anymore. lol

 

[anathelia]

Now and then I think of when we were together

Like when you said you felt so happy you could die
Told myself that you were right for me
But felt so lonely in your company
But that was love and it's an ache I still remember

You can get addicted to a certain kind of sadness
Like resignation to the end, always the end
So when we found that we could not make sense
Well you said that we would still be friends
But I'll admit that I was glad it was over

But you didn't have to cut me off
Make out like it never happened and that we were nothing
And I don't even need your love
But you treat me like a stranger and I feel so rough
No you didn't have to stoop so low
Have your friends collect your records and then change your number
I guess that I don't need that though
Now you're just somebody that I used to know

Now you're just somebody that I used to know
Now you're just somebody that I used to know
Now and then I think of all the times you screwed me over
Part of me believing it was always something that I'd done
But I don't wanna live that way
Reading into every word you say
You said that you could let it go
And I wouldn't catch you hung up on somebody that you used to know
But you didn't have to cut me off
Make out like it never happened and that we were nothing
And I don't even need your love
But you treat me like a stranger and I feel so rough
And you didn't have to stoop so low
Have your friends collect your records and then change your number
I guess that I don't need that though
Now you're just somebody that I used to know
Somebody
(I used to know)
Somebody
(Now you're just somebody that I used to know)

(I used to know)
(That I used to know)
(I used to know)
Somebody

 

[anathelia]

So after essentially getting $7,000 stolen from us back in February, I think things are finally looking up. We're no longer in danger of our being turned off at any moment along with the internet, TV, and everything else. Troy is THIS close to a HUGE promotion at work that could be a $17k/yr increase in salary. I've started doing babysitting for a friend getting paid $100 a week, I will be getting some extra in June watching some other kids. This means that I'll be able to afford that payment I'll need to make on a new car...so hopefully I'll be getting a new car just in time for my 24th birthday. We're going to have the money together to put a deposit down to rent a house in ~a month so we can get the hell out of this shitty apartment. We'll have enough room for the new baby. Unfortunately, we had to borrow against Troy's 401k, but this way we can move, and we'll have the money to buy baby stuff since last time no one bought us stuff we needed.

It's bee a bitch getting to this point, and we're obviously not in the clear yet...but the fact that I'm making a little money makes me feel better. I've been dying feeling like I can't do anything to help up to this point, and I'm glad that I can finally help, even if it's only a minuscule amount.

My Coyotes are winning in the hockey realm, and that's awesome. Now, if I could get over the PTSD and nightmares associated with being pregnant after Abigail...things would be better. Man, I miss Ativan some nights...lol. 4-5 hours of sleep was fine when I was pregnant...now it's likely killing me. I do feel bad...I haven't gained any weight again. I've actually lost about 10-15 pounds since the beginning of the year. Worries me that it might affect my chances of going into preterm labor again...but I've been getting my weekly injection...so hopefully that will work. Otherwise, I'm gonna be unhappy. It's making my body miserable after I get it. Would hate for it to be in vain. But hey, everything else is look up...so I gotta take what I can get and just hope for the best. 23 weeks down as of today. Only 11 to go until I'm at the point I was at when I had Abbey. Let's get 3 weeks further than that then I'll be happy. lol.

So anyway...that's why I've hardly been around. My depression and stuff has been really bad the last few months, I've been on edge and dealing with a lot. Hopefully this is the end of that and we're actually making progress instead of spinning our wheels.