Dear FW,
Sometimes those efforts of others being there for me are useless when my dark side shows up and attacks, it probably laughed, or even smiled on ocassion when the person feels what I felt, tells me the things I have been telling myself and not having any acceptance whatsoever since the dark side of me won't allow myself to come out and breathe. I'm going through an inner battle and my dark side has taken away my spirituality, my emtional state, my mental state is an ongoing fight which is magnified when I am alone. Physically I cry and cry... my dark side has put me in the lowest of lows and I don't know where else I draw my strength other than hoping that one day my dark side won't be intense and that I heal. That no matter how much it takes from me, I never give up... this fight I had when I was a teen but I had areas which it didn't take, which is now being taken from me. So it's hard for me, every inch of my being is hurt.