Hi Everyone.
I am so sorry I haven't been on here for a while - yet again. Must be my age, cos I keep falling asleep before 9pm our time, these days and it's doing my head in, cos I don't feel my age, certainly don't act my age and certainly don't wanna fall asleep, when I could be on here, having a laugh and enjoying myself! Well, more than anything else that's been happening anyway!
I really am sorry - have had reps re being here more often. The regular times I have been here, have dwindled lately and I wish I could keep awake, but maybe for a while in about 3 weeks onwards that'll change???? I won't have my little job to go to, anymore - at least for now, so maybe I won't be so shattered all the time and can be here more often.
I hate to tell this to you all (those that know me here), but being engaged just seems to have made things worse rather than better for me, cos there's been more probs than ever before - it's one thing after the other and I just don't need this at my age anymore!
Things were going fine, but then I find certain events keep unfolding with him more and more. I am just pissed off right now and it is taking up time of mine I could otherwise be spending more happily.
That's partly why I haven't been here for a while, but the tiredness has set in.
I did try to get on here yesterday, but it said try refresh, or the www. page etc. needless to say, that didn't work.
I have been out tonight, had what I thought was a brilliant evening, then find out yet something else he didnt tell me - conveniently, on his part!!! So, needless to say, it left me wondering why he wouldn't have told me before, given the fact that just a week ago if that, I said to him 'No more lies or secrets' - he agreed. Now, low and behold, he has lied yet again.
I have had enough right now.
I am glad of one thing though - I can get back on here now, having not been able to do so yesterday (5-7-07). It is very late night here now though, so may not be for long, but will last as long as poss.
Sorry to sound off, but no-one else, out of my so-called friends here, want to know, so things have got me down lately - the last few weeks especially.