Ever thought about suicide?

[Specialized]

Ever seriously thought about taking your own life? Not just thinking it, but actually on the brink of doing it?

 

[TheOriginalJames]

Never got that close to it.

 

[Suzie]

Yep... about 7 years ago. I remember being on the floor in my kitchen with a knife. I guess I wasnt brave enough... but Im thankful now that I didnt... my life has totally changed around for the better.

 

[Mrs Behavin]

Ive been really upset that sometimes I wonder why go on but Ive never attempted it. To me thats selfish

 

[Maritxu]

Yes, but to be honest I just have to remember how much people can overcome to feel stupid about my problems..

 

[Kat]

sad to say 2 times in my life. I came very close to it...the first time was when i was only 12...right after my father killed himself. I tried to follow him...Lucky me I didnt realize a person couldnt technically strangle themselves cause they pass out before they die. Good ole safty mech of your body right.

second time...wont explain or go into...but yes there has been a second time. Hopefully was the last too. I think so...I have so much to live for now I couldnt miss out on it...nor do to my daughter what my dad did to me and my sisters.

 

[GuesSAngel]

yes and yes

 

[Homer]

i'm so glad your all still here .

 

[Haus]

Yes and yes and i've learned a permanent solution is NOT the answer to a temporary problem

 

[Charmer]

Yes and yes and i've learned a permanent solution is NOT the answer to a temporary problem

I'm still wondering when my "permanent temporary problem" will go away...

 

[Charmer]

Ever seriously thought about taking your own life? Not just thinking it, but actually on the brink of doing it?

Probably since I was around 13 years old, (that would mean it's been for 31 years). I tried to kill myself by going 120 miles an hour more than a few times down the freeway...but chickened out before I spun out of control.

I just could never get the strength up to shot myself or stab myself; I'd probably wind up fuckin' up suicide and living.

 

[Veronica]

Sadly enough, yes and yes.. After Joe left, I cried many days.. *(as yall remember) Well, I had the bottle of pills in my hand and I sat there for hours like that.. But I kept seeing my kids face and I knew I didnt want anyone else raising them but me. Not to mention, yall kept me strong and told me to fight. You all and my kids saved me.

 

[Ria]

Sadly, yes and yes.

Twice. Once at 16 and once at 18 and 1/2. Both times were for the types of abuse I was going through. They were such horrific times, no helplines etc back then that I knew of, no-one to turn to for fear of what would happen then.

Then at 21 or 22, thought about it again, but didn't do anything.

There's been nothing ever since and not likely to be another time either - got everything to live and strive for these days. The thought doesn't even enter my mind, not since the last thought I had, just over 22 yrs ago.

I learnt how to get through things now.

I s'pose it can be seen as a selfish act, but when ppl get that low and really do feel there's no-one there for them to help them, all reasoning and normality is 'out the window' so rational thoughts just aren't there unfortunately.

Still, I got through the 2 ocassions I did it, somehow and am still here and think things through each step of the way now, when faced with probs. Have done ever since those times.

I am happy these days.

 

[Specialized]

I've never thought about killing myself. My family and I are a unit. It'd be selfish of me to ever do it.


Even if I did get down to the ground with a knife to my wrist, I don't think I'd have the balls.

 

[Ria]

It's tough being at that stage, but luckily, many get through it.

It's not really down to a choice thing in the end - it is so hard to describe the feelings and explain that sort of situation to those who haven't been unfortunate enough to have had to go through it, it isn't as cut and dry as people think sometimes, it's way way deeper than that.

I won't say how I attempted either time, but the second time made me closer to it than the first. Someone found me.

As I said, that was years ago for me and never again. I have gone through plenty of desparate situations since then, but I had learnt to get through it at those times, since my darkest moments beforehand.

Glad you haven't had that to deal with, you and all the others'.

There is a light at the end of the tunnel as they say. I was lucky I could see it......

 

[Suzie]

There is a light at the end of the tunnel as they say. I was lucky I could see it......

Well said... Im glad I was able to see mine as well. Honestly, I wouldnt have changed anything back then. I have grown and learned from it all. If people have went thru something horrible and havnt learned or havnt gotten anything out of that...then thats just sad.

 

[sexy.time]

Yes, I was in a really low point in my life......bout 2 years ago, and i was just crying and going beserk. I tried to cut my wrist with this sharp screwdriver for watches that i found.....i guess if i really wanted to i coulda used a razor or exacto knife....but i made about 4 cuts on both wrists going vertical and horizontal....then by the grace of god my stepdad walked into my room without knocking.....i got bandaged up and still have scars that i try to hide. Im not sure if i really wanted to kill myself....but i was certain i wanted to hurt myself and bleed.

 

[Ria]

Hi Suzie.

I tried to rep you, but can't since I repped ya before. I wanted to rep ya cos I am so glad you made it too hun.

Here's to our bright lives

 

[Ria]

Yes, I was in a really low point in my life......bout 2 years ago, and i was just crying and going beserk. I tried to cut my wrist with this sharp screwdriver for watches that i found.....i guess if i really wanted to i coulda used a razor or exacto knife....but i made about 4 cuts on both wrists going vertical and horizontal....then by the grace of god my stepdad walked into my room without knocking.....i got bandaged up and still have scars that i try to hide. Im not sure if i really wanted to kill myself....but i was certain i wanted to hurt myself and bleed.

My post above referrs to you too then. Sorry, I was typing when you posted, didn't see yrs til after - always keep yr head up and keep smiling. You are all good lovie.

 

[Suzie]

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