Cheer me up guys :( I'm having a dreadful day :(

[RyanRacer555]

How can I cheer up?

Guys, I feel so terrible. like my life is being sucked into some kind of black abyss and it's not even afternoon yet. I simply could not sleep last night, it was as if every terrible thought and worry and insecurity consumed me and I tried to reach out but in my cold dark room there was nothing but... nothingness, really. I hate the snow and I'm cold and the tv is dreadful.. I just don't know how to keep my mind off my worries you know? i can't even concentrate on uni work or anything like this!!

Advice? am I depressed? ugh.

 

[Galvatron]

Some times you need to have a look around and you soon realize that what you consider a crap life is in fact nothing compared to what is currently going on in the world,give yourself a swift kick up the arse and remind yourself things could be a hell of a lot worse.

Wallowing in self pity does not change things....getting of your arse and having a positive outlook will improve things....i say this as i have told my son the same thing some time back...he is studying Biology,forensic science and business whilst working 24 hours per week and raising a son(8 months old) with his fiancée,she works part time(jointly this gives them a full time wage) also and is in education....they fucking laugh every day as they refuse to get knocked down as they know the life ahead of them will be only what they make it.

 

[freakofnature]

Josh says relax. :nod:

 

[AnitaBeer]

So I'm confused, did something bad actually happen to you or are you just saying this because you fear something bad from happening and can't stop thinking about it?

 

[Joshsaysrelax]

Hope you feel better soon, me and Nigel are worried about you x <3

Don't show your weakness in front of other people hun, cos ur know ur better than that. Get some lovely ice cream, phish food is always good I had some last night i prob told you. x

 

[HK]

What does your worry and insecurity tend to focus on, any particular thing?

 

[RyanRacer555]

thank you all<3 oh I just feel like it's a mix of the fear of things happening, the expeience of things in my past and things that are currently upsetting me I'm such a big worrier, you see!

 

[RyanRacer555]

Hope you feel better soon, me and Nigel are worried about you x <3

Don't show your weakness in front of other people hun, cos ur know ur better than that. Get some lovely ice cream, phish food is always good I had some last night i prob told you. x

thank you.. i'm not going to hassle you about why your phone is stuff off, it's ok. i hope you're having great day josh, love you. x

 

[RyanRacer555]

i'm feeling a lot better now hope you all are well too!

 

[Joshsaysrelax]

so happy that ur feeling better baby x

can't wait to tell nigel the good news <3

 

[HK]

Who the fuck is Nigel and why does he keep popping up?

 

[RyanRacer555]

Who the fuck is Nigel and why does he keep popping up?

agreed, seriously josh why is nigel always brought up?

 

[Thornless]

Who the fuck is Nigel and why does he keep popping up?

One door closes, another opens.... :24: good job HK.

 

[HK]

One door closes, another opens.... :24: good job HK.

I can't help myself

 

[Thornless]

agreed, seriously josh why is nigel always brought up?

Go have a hot shower, rub one off, and eat a pint of Ben and Jerry's.

You need to take a moment for yourself and relax. Relationshop drama isn't for the internrt, if you want to keep having one.

 

[Joshsaysrelax]

RELAX RYAN BABY! OMG PLZ BABY PLZ x

Nigel is just my friend who is staying over with me this weekend. Him and Ryan don't always get along cos they had an argument one time when we all went out once. I wish ryan would let it go, i didn't even know that guy we were all bickering about, but it all ended nicely and i stuck with Ryan even after everything me and Nigel had together. I thought we put it all behind us when Ryan helped me move into my new home and Nigel was there and they got along fine.

I think this dustin vs Jack debate has just reignited old damage between them and i'm stuck in the middle of it.

 

[RyanRacer555]

<33 thank you thornless, i do have some ice cream here haha

josh, just.. give me a moment, i'll come back and reply whn I'm not so flustered.

 

[RyanRacer555]

RELAX RYAN BABY! OMG PLZ BABY PLZ x

Nigel is just my friend who is staying over with me this weekend. Him and Ryan don't always get along cos they had an argument one time when we all went out once. I wish ryan would let it go, i didn't even know that guy we were all bickering about, but it all ended nicely and i stuck with Ryan even after everything me and Nigel had together. I thought we put it all behind us when Ryan helped me move into my new home and Nigel was there and they got along fine.

I think this dustin vs Jack debate has just reignited old damage between them and i'm stuck in the middle of it.

OK. this is my problem...

people of the forum, is this just me? he is always going on about nigel ALWAYS. i will take this to a private discussion soon but i need to have you advice on this. is it me? am i going nuts?

it's like all he talks about is nigel

AND WHY THE HEARTS JOSH? ALWAYS WITH THE HEARTS?

 

[Joshsaysrelax]

you know i'm a lovin person bbz! you say u care for me and yet u always maon about the love i show. i show only the love i feel for the world and be grateful that i feel it so true and so strong <3

don't drag others into this, i'll never do that to you, i just wish you and nigel could get along, because i hate being forced to divide myself between you guys. if this has all come from a silly dustin hoffman v jack ncholson debate then i'm sorry it has to be like this x

maybe i should get nigel to sign up here too and maybe we can straight this out because you both need to talk

 

[Joshsaysrelax]

Hello, this is Nigel.

I asked Josh if I could borrow his account on this fine site you have. What started out as me having to stay over to avoid driving in the snow has somehow turned into this fracas, and I'm not going to lie, it has pained me. Josh has told me that Ryan is very upset at me liking Jack Nicholson more than Dustin Hoffman and it fails me how my opinion over something so trivial as caused such hostility.

It's put me in such a difficult position knowing there is this online backchat between these two people, one of which I'm good friends with and one I wish I could get off to a fresh start with. If I'm central to this falling out then I'm truly sorry, it's just I mean no wrong and this going on has been humiliating. Nobody probably cares what I have to say but I have some self respect which needed defending. I'm not even properly gay, only half gay if that makes any sense. I'm totally not into Josh the way I think Ryan is insinuating I am, sure we have huddled together a bit, but anyone who knows Josh knows that he is a very physical friend.

And sadly, I can't drive again, and also I'm left eating some of Ryans leftover ice cream again. But Josh has vowed to replace all the lost ice cream and make it up to Ryan when they get together soon. I know next time they do get together they're going to sit down and watch the Graduate, they'll not even remember any of this happened.

Thanks for reading

Your friend, Nigel x