Cha-ch-ch-changes

[brieze]

I went back to my hometown today. I spent most of the day walking around on backroads. It was strange. That town is literally all I've ever known since I moved to my current home 5ish years ago, and even though every inch of that place holds memories, I couldn't help but feel detached. I mean I still love it there, don't get me wrong, but it's not home anymore. That made me wonder, is it me that changed or my hometown, or a bit of both. The town has indeed changed, but not structurally. More new paint jobs and different businesses in the same buildings. New houses on old plots. Some empty plots. That sort of thing. And I've changed.

Then it reminded me of Rugrats lol. Where the grandpa always says "back when I was your age we used to walk 15 miles...". Maybe I'm just getting old. Maybe I have decades full of this feeling to look forward to. I don't know. What do you guys think? Ever dealt with this feeling or questions before?

 

[AstriaPorta]

always you do feel the need to go back home where you born and grow up, but you do realise that it is just the memories you have there...
and that's when you realise that it is not any more your home... the feeling is different ..


and home is now where you live at the moment

 

[brieze]

Basically lol. I've never thought of here as home. We kept our house to go back to when job situations allow (I live in a hotel that my dad runs). So I mean, here wasn't meant to be permanent. We didn't even pack our stuff from our house. Then my mom died last month, and we're moving our stuff in storage... I just feel a little homeless I guess, in an emotional attached way.

 

[jassilem]

It's like that for me when I go back home too. But for me here isn't home..

I go back east and it's like finding an old pair of jeans you have loved for years that you misplaced.. putting them on and they don't seem to fit you the way they used to so much.

 

[AUFred]

I believe it was Thomas Wolfe who said, "You can never go home again."
It is very true.

 

[brieze]

I go back east and it's like finding an old pair of jeans you have loved for years that you misplaced.. putting them on and they don't seem to fit you the way they used to so much.

That's exactly how I feel. I expected to feel so much more.

 

[jassilem]

That's exactly how I feel. I expected to feel so much more.

Yeah it's an odd sensation.. you feel like it should all just click into place..

I totally get it.:nod:

 

[brieze]

Does it ever click, or is it more like what Fred said?

 

[jassilem]

For me it clicks.. it just takes some time.

I am going home for a month this summer.. I will probably feel out of place for the first few days and then it will all start to fit again.

 

[brieze]

Hope you enjoy it =]

 

[AUFred]

Does it ever click, or is it more like what Fred said?

The places I have called home when I return it feels strange & disjointed. Almost every home I ever lived in has been removed or should be.

 

[jassilem]

Thank you.

I hope so too. I miss my family.

 

[brieze]

The places I have called home when I return it feels strange & disjointed. Almost every home I ever lived in has been removed or should be.

Growing up is weird.

 

[Dana]

Whenever I go visit fam in the town I grew up in, I always think it';s a ghost town. Nobody outside walking or anything. Back when i lived there in the 80s i could go out walking around at 7-9 years old and always see kids i knew.

 

[purpledove]

Do you think maybe that the detached feeling has more to do with fond memories of your mom? You're maybe associating a lot of that hometown with her! Given you've just lost her a month ago, that maybe since you're still in the grieving process, which I am thinking combination of Denial to Depression stage that it's giving you that weird feeling? :unsure:

Normally, grieving phases: Denial, Anger, Bargaining, Depression, Acceptance which happens from 6 months to a year after a loss/grief. But of course everyone is unique and some may take longer.....

 

[porterjack]

Growing up is weird.

true dat, exactly why it is to be avoided

nothing good comes of maturity

 

[brieze]

which I am thinking combination of Denial to Depression stage that it's giving you that weird feeling? :unsure:

I thought about this on the way home earlier. Maybe I am.

 

[Zorak]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N1sLEJ6RUOI&feature=related

 

[Xeno]

Rugrats

(...when it was kewl to be a kid...)​