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[BreakfastSurreal]

man i didn't know WHAT stress was until this week. There are too many stories to tell about all the crazy crap that has been going on with me, and I don't want to type a novel so I will just leave it at that. But this week was sooooooo tough. I had 2 friends get dumped, and both needing the hell out of me, and i just couldnt be there for them like they wanted, and that hurt me. I think I cried probably every day. I got sick, missed class, went to work full time, for some reason now I can't eat. I keep throwing up everything. Well not EVERYTHING but at least twice a day for the past 2 days. I just feel like I'm suffocating. I don't want to cut my hours at work, I LOVE my job, but finding time for everything else is stressful. My wedding is in 4 months....I met and fell in love with one of my friend's ex's new girlfriends...so i feel reallllly weird about that...ugh i am just tired of being the "bumper" friend..ya know? I don't got time for that shit no more and I need to learn to suck it up and grow a backbone and stop helping people when all they do is hurt me. I need some love and support here guys. I might not be around as much now, but you guys are the ones I come to with my problems. I feel like a burden to everyone else. I haven't kept the house straight because of lack of time/energy, and it's putting me in a bad mood.

 

[SilentEyz]

Sorry to hear things are so hard right now Clare..

You know you have all of us here.. Bitch and Rant all you need.. But keep your head up.. We luv ya.

 

[Trance97]

This is just another bump in the road. You'll pass it. It just takes time.

 

[BreakfastSurreal]

thanks. Bitching to people about my shit is really the only thing that makes me feel better. I think that hs to do with me being a woman and all, we are mostly all like that. I am doing good at keeping my head up, normally i would have caved under all this pressure already, but i am sucking it up this time instead of feelin sorry for myself. Another thing that happened was that i had to find someone else to take my old position at work, and the girl i found decided to quit in the middle of the day, so that totally made me feel bad for even putting my name behind her, and thats pretty much when i started to crumble. i started crying at work, and they told me to take the day off...maybe i should have but i didnt want to go home so i stayed. the worst is the messages on my phone. man. you guys wouldnt believe how many voicemails i have with people BAWLING trying to tell me they are sorry, or that "i dont wanan bring you into this, but..." and man i am just so tired of that shit. you guys are the only people i really tell about my problems, so it may seem like I am like that but I am really not...this is just my outlet. You guys are like my personal therapy team i <3 you all

 

[andcuriouser]

We're all here for you, hon.

Don't hesitate to chat me up on aim or whenever, okay?

 

[SilentEyz]

No worries.. We all use this board to release the stresses of TRW, were here for you.

 

[BreakfastSurreal]

thanks, i feel so much better already! you guys re-fill my love tank when it's running on empty
*hugs and kisses for everyone*

 

[SilentEyz]

*huggles for Clare*:smiley31:

 

[Homer]

for me it was times like these that i love to burry my head in work.

 

[BreakfastSurreal]

no shit! thats kinda why i didnt wanna go home yesterday. i love my job so much, and it seems like im a harder worker when there is shit going on with me.

 

[Trance97]

no shit! thats kinda why i didnt wanna go home yesterday. i love my job so much, and it seems like im a harder worker when there is shit going on with me.

That's good that you love your job. You don't hear that much from people. I wish I loved my job, but I'm stuck with it until I'm done with school.

 

[Eridanus]

I know I'm new here and my thoughts probably don't count for much, but I'd just like to say, keep your chin up, do whatever is best for you and make sure you are taking care of yourself.

 

[TheOriginalJames]

Run around in circles with your hands up screaming anything that comes to mind.

It helps... just ask Willy here.

:willy_nilly:

See? he's looking less stressed day in and day out.

:tongue:

 

[Trance97]

Run around in circles with your hands up screaming anything that comes to mind.

It helps... just ask Willy here.

:willy_nilly:

See? he's looking less stressed day in and day out.

:tongue:

ha...

 

[TheOriginalJames]

Even TJ agrees with me.

 

[Trance97]

Who's TJ?

 

[TheOriginalJames]

You are.

 

[Trance97]

Yeah, you're defiantly losing it.

 

[TheOriginalJames]

No no, Clare is losing it. She needs a big punching bag.