Off the deep end...

[Demonicpixie]

I've been seriously ill for the past year, but it's been a complete hell the last three weeks. I don't know exactly what's wrong with me, I have an appointment with a specialist on Wednesday to hopefully start the beginning of the end of this hell.

The worst part of this illness is that I have blood coming out of my bowels pretty much all day. I'm afraid to eat and I try to refrain from eating for as long as possible in the hopes that I'll go to the bathroom less. I drink protein shakes, eat pudding, and generally feel sick and weak all day.

They say that not eating causes physiological problems in people because we're programmed to eat and when we don't our body rebels. Some of the symptoms have been stated as:

Depression
Anxiety
Irritability and anger
Lability (ever-changing
mood)
Psychotic episodes
Personality changes
Social withdrawal

I have been experiencing all of them except the psychotic episodes and personality changes. My social withdrawal has become so intense that I don't really know what to say to people anymore. I associate eating with fear because to me food = consequences that I feel aren't worth it.

Long story short, if I can't get this fixed soon, I'm going to go completely off the deep end.

 

[Guyzerr]

Long story short, if I can't get this fixed soon, I'm going to go completely off the deep end.

I won't go into what actually happened to me but I know the fear you speak of when you talk about not wanting to eat. Suffice to say as of this Wed. you will be on your way to knowing what has been bothering you. Be prepared for a whack of tests, some of which are not very pleasant. Good luck.

 

[Demonicpixie]

Yeah, I'm expecting that I have some uncomfortable poking and prodding in my future. But I just want this to be over, I don't care what they need to do to fix it I just want it fixed. Thank you for the well wishes.

 

[Codrus]

Depression
Anxiety
Irritability and anger
Lability (ever-changing
mood)
Psychotic episodes
Personality changes
Social withdrawal

all this list does ....is show that your alive...and your a female

i know that doctors are supposed to be smart...but even the best doctors still "PRACTICE" medicine.

hope you feel better

 

[SupBro]

Depression
Anxiety
Irritability and anger
Lability (ever-changing
mood)
Psychotic episodes
Personality changes
Social withdrawal

All these symptoms match sup bro withdrawal syndrome bro. If you're a hot asian chick sup bro recommends you call sup bro up bro.

Sup Bro?

 

[retro]

All these symptoms match sup bro withdrawal syndrome bro. If you're a hot asian chick sup bro recommends you call sup bro up bro.

Sup Bro?

Dick move

 

[pinkporridge]

Well sup bro seems irritating.. Anyways I hope you get it all figured out and I hope it's an easy fix so you can put your life back together. I wish you luck.

 

[hart]

Wishing you get an answer soon.

 

[Peter Parka]

Hope you get well soon and anyone that says what Supbro said is a cunt.

 

[rback33]

Hope you get well soon and anyone that says what Supbro said is a cunt.

I agree with all of this. Get well soon!

 

[HK]

Does the bleeding actually hurt and thus your fear of eating, or is it just that the blood is worrying?

I can only think that if it's the latter, it sounds like you're going to bleed whether you feed yourself crap or feed yourself properly. And the better choice is surely to try and get a decent amount of nutrients in you if you're going to have a chance at fighting whatever is wrong.

I can imagine it's very scary but you don't want to be giving yourself further problems on top of whatever you already have going on by not looking after yourself. All you're doing by not eating properly is weakening yourself, and fighting the symptom rather than the cause.

Good luck with the specialist - I hope they give you some resolution to this fear.

 

[Demonicpixie]

Thank you for the well wishes. Turns out I have Ulcerative Colitis. It's a pretty bad case, I'm on some strong meds though, and I am feeling much better. Mentally and physically.

 

[hart]

Glad to hear you got a diagnosis and are on the road to recovery!

 

[Demonicpixie]

Thank you :3 your avatar is adorable BTW