do not watch 9/11 documentaries right before bed.. im wide awake and cant close my eyes without seeing such horrible scenes and hearing frantic voices..
... why is it that we (assuming im not the only one) do or watch something we know is going to be sad, yet we do it anyway???
i always get sucked into 9/11 stories... i know what i'm in for, but i have some feeling inside that i SHOULD be watching it... its weird i know.. but anyone else feel this way??? it's not like i'm watching these stories thinking the ending will be different..i know how the story will in fact end ...i hate writing such a sad note, but my eyes are wide open.. and i know there will be alot of these shows and documentaries on since the 5th anniversary of September 11th is coming up... wow-- i cant believe i just wrote that.. 5 years.... and i can remember that day.. or more like week just like it was yesterday...i had been at school in north jersey, directly across from manhattan for exactly 5 days.. (what a way to start out freshman year of college) lex and i were sleeping, ya know since it was before noon, and my mother called and i swore one of my family members died.. she was so upset she couldnt get her words out.. and when i turned on the news after i finally heard her telling me to turn on the tv, any station, but just to turn it on... i saw what was going on.. .and i just dropped the phone, jaw wide open.. and just stared for i dont know how long... i woke lex and we went out to the hallway to see what was going on out there.. we went to the top floor of our dorm and looked out the window across the river.... just as the south tower collapsed.. a cloud of smoke rose into the air and although we didnt find out til later.. it was clear that this was not a good sign.. later when we finally made our way out to daylight.. it was eerily quiet.. i couldnt figure out what was missing... later i realized there were no airplanes.. living in the metropolitan area, you do not go more than 15 minutes without hearng a plane..
for those of you that have never seen the new york city skyline in person.. i will try to explain the feeling of seeing the skyline WITHOUT the world trade center, because i honestly can't picture the full skyline in my head any longer.. my boyfriend at the time and i went to weehawkin (no more than a mile across the river from manhattan) and got out of the car and walked towards the harbor.. once we were passed the trees, we both stopped short.. they were really GONE! the buildings that we saw everyday on the turnpike, the ones that every kid has visited, the ones we asked our fathers exactly how the men built them... the feeling i got that day, and actually felt just as i wrote that, there are just no words for it....i can say with certainity- that was the worse feeling i had felt in my life...
anytime i pass the skyline i look over, expecting to see the twin towers, and every time i am let down... they still have not appeared...
.. so if you feel the need to leave a comment on 9/11-- where you were, how you feel almost 5 years later, or just to agree with that i wrote.. go for it.. if not-- thats fine too, but i had to get it out :usa
... why is it that we (assuming im not the only one) do or watch something we know is going to be sad, yet we do it anyway???
i always get sucked into 9/11 stories... i know what i'm in for, but i have some feeling inside that i SHOULD be watching it... its weird i know.. but anyone else feel this way??? it's not like i'm watching these stories thinking the ending will be different..i know how the story will in fact end ...i hate writing such a sad note, but my eyes are wide open.. and i know there will be alot of these shows and documentaries on since the 5th anniversary of September 11th is coming up... wow-- i cant believe i just wrote that.. 5 years.... and i can remember that day.. or more like week just like it was yesterday...i had been at school in north jersey, directly across from manhattan for exactly 5 days.. (what a way to start out freshman year of college) lex and i were sleeping, ya know since it was before noon, and my mother called and i swore one of my family members died.. she was so upset she couldnt get her words out.. and when i turned on the news after i finally heard her telling me to turn on the tv, any station, but just to turn it on... i saw what was going on.. .and i just dropped the phone, jaw wide open.. and just stared for i dont know how long... i woke lex and we went out to the hallway to see what was going on out there.. we went to the top floor of our dorm and looked out the window across the river.... just as the south tower collapsed.. a cloud of smoke rose into the air and although we didnt find out til later.. it was clear that this was not a good sign.. later when we finally made our way out to daylight.. it was eerily quiet.. i couldnt figure out what was missing... later i realized there were no airplanes.. living in the metropolitan area, you do not go more than 15 minutes without hearng a plane..
for those of you that have never seen the new york city skyline in person.. i will try to explain the feeling of seeing the skyline WITHOUT the world trade center, because i honestly can't picture the full skyline in my head any longer.. my boyfriend at the time and i went to weehawkin (no more than a mile across the river from manhattan) and got out of the car and walked towards the harbor.. once we were passed the trees, we both stopped short.. they were really GONE! the buildings that we saw everyday on the turnpike, the ones that every kid has visited, the ones we asked our fathers exactly how the men built them... the feeling i got that day, and actually felt just as i wrote that, there are just no words for it....i can say with certainity- that was the worse feeling i had felt in my life...
anytime i pass the skyline i look over, expecting to see the twin towers, and every time i am let down... they still have not appeared...
.. so if you feel the need to leave a comment on 9/11-- where you were, how you feel almost 5 years later, or just to agree with that i wrote.. go for it.. if not-- thats fine too, but i had to get it out :usa
