What would have I done, knowing that it was my final kiss that I’d ever receive from you, the last embrace that I could ever have in your strong arms. What would I do in that moment knowing that was the last time that I’d feel your chest breathing against my breast. As I stare into your eyes with love, that I blink and you disappear so easily in the darkness. I would have told you how much I truly loved you like no other, there was no one I could have seen my future with, except you. I loved you more than I can count the sand in the whole entire Earth. There is no one who is like you, who has your honour, valour, calmness, charm, and charity. I walked down a path in my life where I was discovering who I was on the inside. I know you walked down a path where you came out of darkness and started to see everyday being worthwhile. Somewhere along the way, our paths have crossed. You helped me discover there is more to life, there is lessons to be taught every single day, that I can reach my goals as long as I can dream, we both dreamed together on so many nights which I loved sharing with you because you understood me like no one else can, I fell in love a lot sooner that what I could ever imagine, I knew there was no regret that could come out of my breath, I knew I couldn’t give anyone else as much love as I gave to you. I gave you all of me because I wanted to, I could have given you the whole entire world if you asked, as cheesy as that sounds. In your arms all I found was peace, in your eyes I seen your love for me, I never felt alone with you beside me, I felt strength when you held me, that I go on each day, I felt happiness in my life, along with joy and calmness, knowing each battle that life brought me, it can be overcome with you holding my hand, making sure I stand and never fall, you would’ve picked me up and carried me in your arms when I needed rest and couldn’t do it myself. I love you. When I seen your eyes for the last time, I saw us in a field beside a creek on a sunny day in Autumn, a little wind blew some leaves in a path that we were walking on hand in hand, I stopped and gave you a kiss, you looked a bit more older with greyer hair but your eyes still looked at me the same way on a summer day when you grabbed my hand on a small hill to help me down and we shared our first kiss shortly afterwards. Little did I know that my vision would never come to fruition, little did I know that was the last kiss goodnight, the last time I’d feel your warmth against me, that was the last time I’d ever taste you on my lips. I would have done anything in the world to make you stay, to help you not be scared of our future together, I would have given up my soul if I could have you for one more night because without you the inside of me became empty, lost and confused. I know you wanted me to have something better than you could ever have given me, to me.... it means nothing without you because you are the love of my life, always and forever. I want your happiness more than anything. I have no happiness inside my heart because you are no longer in my life, I would do anything you’d ask of me.... even if it did mean that I can no longer see you ever again. I hope now more than I have ever in my life, I hope for your happiness, I hope for your good health, I hope that you find what it is that you want and desire, even if it means the woman you belong with isn’t me. I pray for you more than I do for myself. I love you more than what you thought or imagined, I chose to, I chose you to be my first love. I never knew love until I met you, thank you for making me discover that, thank you for the great memories, thank you for everything you’ve done for me. Little did I know what I was losing when I gave you up, I gave the strongest fight that I ever could but I knew I couldn’t force you into anything you have no desire for. I have a great pain inside my soul knowing you’re not there, I feel more alone that I ever felt in my life, losing the love of my life is the hardest thing to do.... I’m scared to go through that again, I’m scared of opening my heart up as I once did, I’m scared of battling each day without you.
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