a more private open letter

[itsmeJonB]

I wanted to start an open letter thread that's more private, something off the public board in a more mature environment, feel free to comment/contribute, I just felt like this needed to be archived:

From a text message I sent tonight:
Before you make it complete I have something to say before the final delete- maybe I shouldn't have dipped my pen in the company ink. To think, I trusted you over everyone and now I'm on the brink- of insanity; depression enough to make me wanna see a shrink. I looked past your little lies til you played with my emotions. Even when mother fuckers talked behind your back I looked past all the comotion. Now its like errosion tearing me down from the inside out. Rhyming is the way you can tell exactly what I'm speaking about. I let you into my secrets, its fucked up but belive it, the feelings I felt for you was something I thought that I needed. I live my life with no regrets but there was just something about you, no matter how much I want to be around you something about you makes me want to doubt you. You helped me discover I have a co-dependency. And as much as I want to say I love you I feel you never respected me. So much of this intensity- I'm shaking as I'm typing. Why the hell did you say it if you never really did like me? You probably won't read this, forget the size of my penis, its my heart I wanted you on and I always did mean it. Your attention; I shouldn't need it but I'm convinced my mind forced me, my only fear now is that you'll hate me, use your knowledge and expose me.

 

[AUDRAA]

wow thats deep Dexx, are you ok hun?

 

[brieze]

Did you write that?

 

[itsmeJonB]

I will be eventually, only way I can heal properly is by learning from my mistakes

 

[itsmeJonB]

Did you write that?

Yes I did, in a text message, so please excuse the typos

 

[NuckingFuts]

That was really good. Hope things get better for you soon.

 

[AUDRAA]

I will be eventually, only way I can heal properly is by learning from my mistakes

yep thats true, and if writing helps you also I think that is a great outlet

 

[brieze]

Yes I did, in a text message, so please excuse the typos

I think it's very well worded. She's an idiot obviously, not every guy out there would take the time to write that for a girl.

 

[AUDRAA]

I think it's very well worded. She's an idiot obviously, not every guy out there would take the time to write that for a girl.

Im impressed that a guy would actually say that! Not many would open themselves up like that and I think its awesome that he can do that to a woman

 

[itsmeJonB]

I appreciate the responses.
Rhyme is the easiest way for me to expose my emotions, talking to a girl without getting creative about it would be impossible for me

 

[brieze]

Im impressed that a guy would actually say that! Not many would open themselves up like that and I think its awesome that he can do that to a woman

Exactly. I'm a little jealous of this girl lol, I don't think my boyfriend would ever do something like this for me.
Fuck her.

 

[AUDRAA]

your boyfriend hell my husband wouldnt say that to me haha

 

[Dana]

I wanted to start an open letter thread that's more private, something off the public board in a more mature environment, feel free to comment/contribute, I just felt like this needed to be archived:

From a text message I sent tonight:
Before you make it complete I have something to say before the final delete- maybe I shouldn't have dipped my pen in the company ink. To think, I trusted you over everyone and now I'm on the brink- of insanity; depression enough to make me wanna see a shrink. I looked past your little lies til you played with my emotions. Even when mother fuckers talked behind your back I looked past all the comotion. Now its like errosion tearing me down from the inside out. Rhyming is the way you can tell exactly what I'm speaking about. I let you into my secrets, its fucked up but belive it, the feelings I felt for you was something I thought that I needed. I live my life with no regrets but there was just something about you, no matter how much I want to be around you something about you makes me want to doubt you. You helped me discover I have a co-dependency. And as much as I want to say I love you I feel you never respected me. So much of this intensity- I'm shaking as I'm typing. Why the hell did you say it if you never really did like me? You probably won't read this, forget the size of my penis, its my heart I wanted you on and I always did mean it. Your attention; I shouldn't need it but I'm convinced my mind forced me, my only fear now is that you'll hate me, use your knowledge and expose me.

I've so been there man....

I wrote this about someone yesterday

I wonder where things fell apart? Where did I go wrong? i can see you even though you seem to be hiding Your heart is it locked? You make excuses but when I try to reach out I get to a dead end… I must of been wrong falling for a young thing like you. I didn’t see the signs that you were playing me for a fool i still think of you. Though I don’t know why You almost had my heart. Then you let it die.

 

[itsmeJonB]

I'm glad my words are relatable sometimes its tough feeling different

 

[Dana]

poetry is a great way of expressing ones feelings

 

[Niamh]

That was really nice, I think writing stuff like that down whether it's by letter or rhyme as you've did it is a great way of saying everything you need to without saying too much in the heat of the moment face to face. Hope you're ok

 

[BadBoy]

I was reading along enjoying, losing myself in your words when I came to this: "You probably won't read this, forget the size of my penis, its my heart I wanted you on and I always did mean it".

Did she have penis size issues with you?

It isn't much solace now, but there are plenty of women out there that would enjoy this kind of thoughtful man.

 

[itsmeJonB]

I was reading along enjoying, losing myself in your words when I came to this: "You probably won't read this, forget the size of my penis, its my heart I wanted you on and I always did mean it".

Did she have penis size issues with you?

It isn't much solace now, but there are plenty of women out there that would enjoy this kind of thoughtful man.

No she liked the size of my penis, she just seemed more infatuated with it than with me