thinking drinking

[Bagel]

you missed an aweosem concert that night crys

 

[Kat]

[FONT=Trebuchet MS, Verdana, Arial][SIZE=-1]Has anyone ever heard of Voodoo Blue?


No tears
Even though I see the truth
Dark years
Fill the sky and shadow you
We all pretend to be
What it is we think they see
And everytime I feel like I'm alive again
All the lies
Flash before my eyes again
Let me out cause I'm not
Doing anybody and good [/SIZE][/FONT]

havent heard em yet...but im gonna go search for em now

 

[Darkstar]

Im sorry Kitty...*snuggles for hijacking your thread*

 

[Bagel]

yeha kat ya should..... i dunno... what is it wiht guy that have girsl screwing thigns up so fuckign much..... bah... maybe im not a guy or im some freak of nature for not beign an asshole

 

[Kat]

lol nah...you have hijack premission of course...and so does everyone else...I love the hijackers *hugs*

 

[Darkstar]

Im really hating my heart right now....

 

[Kat]

torn crys? I know the feeling all too well

 

[Bagel]

whats wrong crys?

 

[Kat]

I wonder sometimes...and maybe its bad to think this way...but if it didnt last with Bo...would I be all alone like my mom was....or would anyone see my worth and be ok with a baby and all

 

[Bagel]

if you can be strong you dont need a man.. my momr aised me adn my brother without a reall father (plenty of asshole boyfreidns) but i think i turned out not to worse for the wear

 

[Kat]

i told ya'll this is thinking drinking....so i dunno what to expect from my rambling...hehe dont mind me

 

[Darkstar]

Kat, my darling.

Your daughter will always have a father. But I realized today that i can do it with Riley on my own. So can you. But there are men out there that will accept you and your daughter as a package. Any man would be lucky to have you both.

 

[Kat]

Its not that i need a man...i know i can be strong enough...but i see my mom now...shes been alone for about 20+ years now and getting lonely...I dont want to feel lonely like that and think its too late someday

 

[Bagel]

when you have great friends you are never truly lonely..adn when yoru daughter is olde she willbe your best freind

 

[Kat]

true bagel...but theres more than that...I used to have this dream when i was little...of the perfect wedding...of true love...

but true love is a fairy tale

 

[Kat]

its "my job" to clean the house and take care of her...hmmm ok now i think im just bitching...dont wanna go there

 

[Bagel]

true love is not a fairy tale..i foudn it.... i did.. but the rest of that sutff is jsut semantics... love is what you make it and what the other person makes it ... fairy tales do coem true..ive witnessed it..you jsut cant loose hope

 

[Kat]

maybe youre right...but for some things it is way too late

 

[Bagel]

its never to late... i dunno maybe i'm an optomistic fool.. but im still young i have my whoel life ahead of me..i have as on that i will love till time stops.. and i have a dear freidn that ewweather we be ina relationship or not will still hold my heart.. i'm happy.. on most levels..and i dint sit aroudn and wait for htis to happen..i did somehtign..i took chances..and i payed my consequences.. but above all ..i didnt give up hope..and i leanerned to pick my battles and move on whne needed

 

[Kat]

hmmm i think i was a lot different when i first came on here....didnt sound so i dunno sad....maybe its just me...or maybe i was and just didnt let it out...oh god... lemme stop


so in other news tonight:

she has a new trick she does....when shes holding both my hands now...she struggles with her head to pick herself to sitting position...she gets this wacky look on her face...and pulls and pulls till i help her sit up...and she'll even go to standing from ther with little help....i have to take a video of it to show you all soon...its just too cute